~Initiation-Are You Experienced~
In one’s life many machinations, schemes, plans, etc. are formed and flow in and out to attempt, put on, understand, and put in play. Sometimes they succeed and sometimes they don’t. From all that some stick and some don’t and some come back around again later in one’s life.
This life is one big initiation after initiation. From entry level moving to advanced levels of something whether it be career, military, organizations, or relationships they all have a learning curve. I know I had my initiations time and time again from studying esoteric meditation methods, military career, civilian work career, marriage, death, divorce, adventure sports, and mind altering psychedelics.
All have assisted in paving the way to where I am now in life. No fear no regret only everlasting experience. I suppose I have undergone an Initiation by experiencing life not just reading about life, hands on experience.
Initiation happens in incremental stages, mine came in 10-13 year periods from child to adult. From the books I read such as the works of Alan Watts, Herman Hess, Carlos Castaneda, JRR Tolkien, Ram Dass, Jesus Christ, Bhagavad Gita, Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, writings on the Tao, and many other spiritual minded writings provided a tapestry of understanding for me. From the music I listened to and then played and recorded, the adventures I have had, and the multiple careers I found myself in, all prepared me for this very moment to express these words to you through the lens of experience.
So there is no single initiation event that will bring you to complete and total altered state of awareness, it is the totality of the journey we call life. Ride it, enjoy it, get hurt by it but keep moving forward without fear. Fear will paralyze you and doubt will make you 2nd guess yourself. One has to give to gain, seek to know, and search to destroy what keeps one bound up. It was a beautiful time when I began, sweet and blissful.
However there are 3 events that provided giant leaps of awareness, one was the use of psychedelics. This opened my mind to visually seeing the energy fields of people, animals, insects and the physical environment. And the 2nd was the internal agony and pain I endured from owning the dark-elements within myself. And the 3rd was the death of my father for he was the touch stone to the past of all I knew. I was completely alone at that point after he passed. The past did not seem to exist anymore nor did I care.
~The Long Road Home~
In the previous section I stated that my initiation happened in incremental stages of 10-13 year periods were the beginning and end of each initiation stage. Initiation on a grand scale of one’s life from a macro point of view. Within the grand scale are the granular events, the single events that make up ones tapestry of life’s total initiation journey.
The Law of Rhythm is never out of sync or skips a beat. The pendulum swings precisely when it is meant to swing, for me in 10-13 year cycles.
The long road home is full of turns and pot holes; at times the road is smooth, easy to drive it. Other times it’s a chore just to get on the road let alone drive on it. And you feel beat up afterwards, but we still push forward because that is all we know what to do, roll with the punches. I suppose it is a form of conditioning to keep going when all is falling apart. However I’m still standing after getting knocked down a number of times because I’m in it to win it, to finish the race. Enjoy the ride cause you’re not going to get a repeat in this existence just the next one.
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